The past month has been pretty weird for me. I hate to say it, but I have been lacking any motivation to race for a while lately and it's just been going downward. This is especially frustrating because I am in great physical condition. My climbing time tests have never been higher, but for some reason I just am not as excited about everything as I used to be. The thought of traveling to big races every weekend used to fill my very core with adrenaline and excitement. I longed for the opportunity to test myself against the fast people with a strong desire to prove that I could be just as fast if not faster than the best. Lately, I have lost this desire and have felt like I've been racing for all of the wrong reasons. The worst part is that I am frustrated with myself for feeling this way.
I do not know exactly why it turned out this way. I do not want to make excuses, but I do know that I do not want to end up despising racing so I am taking a little break. I am still going to ride, but I am going to try and go back to basics. I want to rediscover my love for cycling and bring it back to be stronger than ever. I'm not sure how long this will take, but we will see.
I realize that this is horrible timing with this being at the peak of the summer season. I am really sorry to everyone, especially my sponsors, for letting you down. I feel horrible about my mental state, but I just do not want it to get any worse. By the time this is over I hope to come out a stronger person with my passion stronger than ever.
1 comments:
Take time off the bike. Take a week or two of no riding, it really helps the legs and the motivation
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